happiness is a choice.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

---ENDORSER NG MGA LIBRO---

BOB ONG

Ang mga librong may tatak-Bob Ong ay sadyang nakamamangha. Ang ABNKKBSNPLAko ay sadyang nakapagbibigay-inspirasyon. Lalo na sa mga mag-aaral na katulad natin. Makakarelate ka sa kwento ng kanyang buhay. Habang binabasa mo ang bawat salita sa kanyang libro, tila'y sinasabi ng iyong isip, "ABA! AKO ITO AH!". Sa bandang huli ay mapagtatanto mo na lang na, "OO NGA NOH. NAIINTINDIHAN KO NA RIN KUNG BAKIT SILA GANO'N." Take note: True Story ito. Pinagsanib na comedy at drama.

DAN BROWN

WOW! The best author. The most intelligent author. So brilliant. There's a web connecting every detail of his stories. Yung hindi biglang susulpot na lang yung impormasyon. Logically smart. For me, he's the best ever. He can make your heart beat faster. He can give you a nightmare. His books can make you logically-good giving you the ability to solve your problems nang hindi basta-basta. Lastly, your money's worth it. A real WOW!

MITCH ALBOM

Do you hate your life? Then, read inspirational books. Tuesdays with Morrie is a true story. Each chapter focuses on one aspect of life. Mas lalo mong maiintindihan ang buhay kung babasahin mo ito. Another is The Five People You Meet in Heaven. Oh, there's a Filipina character here. :D I wonder where Mitch Albom got those inspiring words of him in his books.

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Sounds ironic, but I'm not a bookworm. Really not. I read books, siguro one book in three months. :D

tinay. (:
9:56 PM

Tutuban Centermall-Gateway-Shopwise-Gateway-Banco de Oro-SM Centerpoint

Ayan. Sa mga lugar na iyan ako naglakbay sa araw na ito. Masaya ako dahil nakarating na rin ako sa Divisoria, sa wakas. Subalit, medyo nahilo ako.

Pumunta kami sa Gateway, sa Shopwise, at muli kaming bumalik sa Gateway. Nang pauwi na kami ay dumaan kami sa bangko at dumiretso sa SM Centerpoint. Namiss ko ang Ice Monster. Syempre, Strawberry Ice.

Sa araw na ito, napagtanto ko ang pagkakaiba ng iba't ibang antas ng mga tao sa lipunan. Nakakaculture shock na galing ako sa Divisoria tapos pupunta ako sa Gateway. HAHA. Ibang-iba yung mga taong nakakasalamuha mo sa isang lugar at sa isa pa.

Totoo pala na ang Maynila ay isang lungsod ng extremes. 'Pag mahirap ka, mahirap na mahirap ka. At 'pag mayaman ka naman, sumosobra pa sa sobra ang iyong kayamanan.

Napagtanto ko na ang Maynila pala ay parang isang teleserye. Ang bida, api-apihan. Nagpapakaduwag. Laging kawawa. Samantalang ang mga kontrabida, ang laging nagmumukhang bida.

Ang galing ni God noh? Buti na lang nilikha niyang balanse ang mundo. Ang tao naman, sinisira ang pagkabalanseng ito.

tinay. (:
9:19 PM

SOULMATES

1) Erika Carreon - We have the same likes and dislikes. We are the same in almost everything. Haha. Nung kaklase ko 'to, sabay kami pag uwian. Pero di pa kami masyadong close nun. Haha. And then, this summer, medyo nagkakuwentuhan kami one time. Tapos yun, tuluy-tuloy na. So far, she knows many things about me. In fact, almost all.

2) Rona Po - My WEIRDmate. Mga bagay na medyo may kawirduhan:
@ bampira. buhay pag gabi at madaling-araw.
@ alas-dose nang umaga ang oras ng paliligo namin.
@ pinapatulog kami ng kape.
@ allergic kami sa fake earrings.
@ kahit saan niyo kami dalhin ay maliligaw kami. (wala kaming kaalam-alam sa mga lugar.)
@ mahilig sa mga jokes. yung mga super corny ay tinatawanan pa rin namin.
@ di pantay ang aming body anatomy. scoliotic eh. Haha.
@ at marami pang iba. :) di man weird sa inyo, para sa'min ay weird na yun. WEIRD NOH? Haha.

O ayan. Nagshare lamang ako. Haha.

tinay. (:
8:57 PM

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

I'm done editing cay's blog. I put one of her pics from her Multiply there. Haha. But it's not a job well done. Pero ok na rin. :)

Oh, our unlimited internet will be disconnected already. Kasi naman, 24/7 ang gamitan. Ibabalik na lang daw sa June. :( It means, I cannot update my blog this May. :(

I will start my summer lessons. HAHA. Not guitar. I lost interest in it already. HAHA.

Until now I wasn't able to do an entry about FAITH. I really want to. But I still don't have enough faith to defend faith. Haha.

tinay. (:
7:30 PM

Saturday, April 22, 2006

PHOTO COURTESY OF GEMEILE

Gemeile's Hamburger. May anak pa! I so love this! Grabe. Addicted. :D

Thanks Gemeile for the pic and sa paglagay sa entry ko! Haha! Mwah!

tinay. (:
10:30 PM

Friday, April 21, 2006

CRYING

Crying, for me, is a humble act.

Yes, humble. Few people can cry in front of many people. Fewer can consider themselves human and that Someone is higher than they are. Fewest can accept their weaknesses. Their imperfections. These make crying an act of humility.

CRYING: A STRONG or A WEAK ACT?

Strong. Because you can accept that life is a very crooked road. That you can't journey alone. That you need God.

Weak. A sign of grief. You feel like giving up. You can't push yourself to stand again and face life. You just wanted to cry and cry.

Judge for yourself the answer to my question.

"When I know things are not meant for me, I learn to let go. It doesn't mean I'm weak, But I'm just showing how strong I am to fight the urge of wanting something I'm not supposed to have"

This is the same with crying. :D

"Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts."
~Charles Dickens, Great Expectations, 1860

It's true. overlying our hard hearts.

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Oh, I'm not satisfied with this entry. My head's aching, that's why. My thoughts aren't in my mind. Haha!

tinay. (:
1:21 PM

Sunday, April 16, 2006

7am, we arrived home.

8am, they attended Mass. Yes, they. I left here because I'm not feeling well. Really not well that until now I ain't well. Haha!

I slept for so long. I watched Your Song. Love it.

I'm starting to like and love the song, "To Love Again" by U-Turn. I just can't stop singing it. Haha. :D

the radio's fine, it helps me forget for a while
i look back and recall those days i had with you
sometimes i need a friend just to make it through
another day is spent without you

you, you gave me all the reasons to live
but then you have to go
and I just got to let you know

its hard to love again
just to make it through another day is spent without you

and i don't wanna go on pretending
that it's gonna be a happy ending
if I should love again
once i learn to love again
and though it will never be the same without you baby
this pain inside is driving me crazy
coz it's hard to love again

friends are great they cheer me up for sometimes
but when the day is gone
my mind is back again with you

oh God I need a friend
just to make it through another day is spent without you

chorus

yes it's hard to love again

I really love songs about goodbye's.

tinay. (:
9:00 PM

holy week days

April 13 - We arrived in Bulacan at 3pm. I missed the house, and my relatives in the father side. Mass at 5 til 7pm. Kwentuhan. Tawanan. Fun.

April 14 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST FRIEND, IKAY! I greeted her at 12. I'm so sleepy that time. :D I hate myself 'coz my idea didn't come to my mind earlier. Anyway, bawi na lang ako next time. Hope there's still next time! :D

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MY SCOLIOSIS OPERATION! Oh, I feel like it's just yesterday. Time is so fast!

HAPPY ONE YEAR TO ME, BEING STRONG PHYSICALLY!

HAPPY TWO MONTHS TO HER, BEING STRONG EMOTIONALLY!

Ok. Enough of that. Back to Bulacan. We joined the prusisyon! I'm so bad I didn't take it seriously. Ate annalyn and I were sharing stories instead of praying and reflecting. Sorry God.

April 15 - I was texting with many people just to tell stories how happy am I there. :D Nag-ayusan din kami ng mga buhok namin. Took pictures and videos. Kwentuhan again. Oh yes! Tita Icay suggested for me to take Business Management at Ateneo if I would pass. Hope so. How my aunt knew that I really love business!

I imagined myself one morning waking up going to a university. Three years to come. But time is so fast that as if it will be in reality in just three days! :D

April 16 - Midnight: Ate Lyn and I joined in bed. Ang saya talaga. Todo tawa kami. As if it would be our last laughters. Eto pa. We're so ignorant that we don't know how to turn on our tita's cellphone. We tried every way to turn it on, pero di talaga namin magawa. After one hour, I made it! How innocent are we! Hehe. Di kasi kami sanay sa sobrang mamahaling cellphone! :D

5am, we left Bulacan. :(

tinay. (:
8:30 PM

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

My cousins left hours ago. They stayed here for 3 days. Of course, we had fun. For three days, our house was a MESS. But it's worth it. Masaya naman kame eh.

These days, I have come to realize something...

It's happier to spend time with people around you than to engage yourself with technology.

Nagsasawa na ko sa text, internet, tv, at iba pa. Dahil hindi naman talaga kayang pantayan ng mga ito ang kasiyahang nabibigay pag kasama mo ang iyong mga kaibigan at pamilya. *love my cousins!*

tinay. (:
8:21 PM

Sunday, April 09, 2006

CLUB PUNTA FUEGO

Ginising ako, 5am. Kasama ko ang dalawa kong kapatid, pinsan na si Chesca, si lola, at ang tito't tita ko. Pupunta kami sa Batangas dahil sa isang outing ng kumpanyang Maersk, kung saan ang aking Tita ang Assistant Manager.

Habang nasa sasakyan ako, nakatingin ako sa mundo. At aking napagtanto na maganda pa rin pala ito, sa kabila ng kapabayaan nating lahat.

Nakarating kami sa Club Punta Fuego pagkalipas ng dalawang oras at kalahati. Sinalubong kami ng mga usherettes na nag-aalok ng malamig na fresh orange juice.

Naglakad ako at dumungaw sa ibaba. Namangha ako kung gaano kaganda ang lugar kung saan ako nakaapak. Isang napakalawak at napakalinaw na beach. Sa sobrang linaw ay makikita mo ang tunay na kagandahan nito-ang mga bato, shells, maliliit na isda, corals, at iba pa. Kahit nasa itaas ako ay kitang-kita ko ang mga iyon.

Kung ikukumpara ko ang lugar na ito sa isa pa, maihahantulad ko ito sa Boracay.

9:30am nang makita ko ang aking sarili na lumalangoy sa beach na iyon. Masarap sa pakiramdam ang maalat ang tubig.

11:00am nang makita ko naman ang aking sarili sa pool. Kakaiba ito sa lahat ng pool sa Pilipinas na nakita ko. Walang chlorine. Malinaw. Mapayapa.

12:00noon ay tinawag na kami upang kumain. Buffet style. Kaunti lamang ang kinain ko dahil nabusog na ako sa kasiyahang dinala sa akin ng mga unang pangyayari. Tila hindi ko naramdaman na kahapon lamang ay isa akong problemadong tao.

1:00pm nang bumalik ako sa pool. Umupo lamang ako doon at nagtext. Kausap ko sina Mimax, Erika, at Gelli. Nalungkot ako sa pag-uusap namin ni Mimax. Naramdaman ko na bumabalik na naman sa aking isip ang mga problemang iniwan ko sa bahay. Nag-uusap naman kami ni Erika tungkol kay Bianca Gonzales na minamanghaan namin. At kami ni Gelli, tungkol sa mga pinapangarap namin. Luxuries, ika nga.

4:00pm ay naligo na kami. Hay. Oras na upang bumalik sa isang maingay na mundo.

5:00pm ay umalis na nga kami roon.

6:30pm nang huminto kami sa isang restaurant. Doon kami naghapunan. Masarap at napaka-unique ng mga pagkain doon. Nakatikim ako ng tawilis na sa Lawa ng Taal lamang makikita. Uminom kami ng Fresh Buko Juice na nasa shell pa.

8:30pm ay nakabalik na kami sa Cavite, sa bahay ng aking pinsan sa Villa de Primarosa. Diretso sa kama, sabay tulog.

This will be so memorable!

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Hahaha! Bakit kaya ako nagtatagalog sa entry na ito? Haha!

PS: Hindi maalis sa isipan ko na ang isang bahay doon ay nagkakahalaga ng P60M. :D

tinay. (:
8:15 PM

Thursday, April 06, 2006

CHANGE

It was last January when I read Tuesdays with Morrie- a book where readers can pick more than a hundred lessons. But among those, one thing resurfaces. And that is the fact that everything changes. Yes. Nothing is ever permanent in this world except CHANGE.

Our world is encountering a lot of changes. Before, it was as good as when God made it. But now, a dying Earth is what our eyes could see.

Plants... animals... NAME IT... everything changes.

...as to people...we're part of the creation. So we, too, change. Not only physically, but also spiritually.

We change. Therefore, relationships change.

There are times when I try to open my eyes to see what my eyes could not literally see. I suddenly notice that the world is turning. Turning continuously. It never stops. As I look at the mirror, I saw myself. I who never been that way. I grow, of course. My attitudes change, as yours. And yes. Like me, people around change.

Yesterday, I read an entry from my friend's blog. She's sad because their relationship with her friend couldn't be the way it was before. Who are they before? Like sisters. Very close and open. Now. I admit. Both of them changed individually. And the result? Their friendship was affected. A distance between them slowly came.

Yes. That became a problem. For them...for me...for us.

And suddenly, I realized something. I learned something.

ATTACHMENT AND DETACHMENT.

For me, one law in life is to join the turning world. Join the changing world. Adapt into it. Learn to be flexible...open...and don't be rigid.

Yes. Learn to be sensitive to the changes around you.

Detach yourself to the old one, and attach to the new one.

Whether the change is good or bad, you could never stop it. But you can refrain from it.

Detach. Take what is good from the old and learn from the bad.

Attach. Be ready to accept the new ones. We have minds. We have hearts. We should know how to discern. To decide.

Two things are for sure: WE COULD NEVER GO BACK TO THE PAST. It's past. And could never be present. Learn from the past. And live it out at present. Second: God knows what He's doing. Definitely. It's for sure!

Smile and turn. Like you are on top of the world.

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Entry for: Ikay, Nona, Ilena, Patricia Conlu, Mimax and others inspired by my previous entries. :-D Thanks guys!

tinay. (:
12:33 PM